My last post explains the importance on being consistent. In this post I will talk about why I am beginning a new series.
When critiquing my “Interlaced Narratives” and the “Woven Structures” series, I see an obsession for perfection. My compulsive personality drives the works. Each woven structure has become predictable. The woven gauze-like covering over a painted variegated background or landscape is made from individual strands of pigmented wax, all woven into a warp and a weft, and it is this interlocking of threads, the under and over linking one line to the next that has become obsessive and my focus. “Have I moved away from the original message of using the veil as a metaphor for destruction of the body and the land that I love?
Lately I have been thinking about concepts for coverings in relation to suffocation. I grew up in an environment where my father was an alcoholic and became violent when he drank. When he was in a rage, I would run to my bedroom and hide in my bed under my sheet. The sheet acted as a covering over my body and I hoped that I would disappear and not be found. The sheet became a cave, a hiding place where no one would find me. So for me the fabric gauze like sheet as a covering has many personal implications.
Also, I am drawn to artists who focus on political or social messages and paint in a gestural way. Artworks that are emotional and charged with energy. On the other hand, my work is obsessive and I strive for perfection so I have been asking, “What am I trying to say through my paintings?” I concluded that I do want to capture this notion of destruction of the inner sprit in relation to the outer layering of forces that are placed over the body of the land and the turmoil of emotions beside obsessive predictable actions. I began experimenting and painted a small 12” X 12” encaustic on panel. This painting integrated actual gauze mesh and I painted with emotion and abandonment. I really liked the results. Here is my experiment.
So, the next 24” X 24” painting continues to integrate the gauze on top of a painted field of flowers shining in the sun. I used actual gauze, painted it, burnt holes in it and then added my painted lines in between the gauze shapes. I want to suffocate the land -not let it breath.
The following third work is the largest that I have painted. It is 24” X 48”. I continue with the theme of using the background as my safe space, a space that I can breath and be who I want to be, the covering acts as protection or a space for a view but not to get through and reach me, the grid of steel lines protects and becomes the barrier.